"Be all yourself, for that is all there is of you."
-Emerson
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I find myself caring less and less for people's opinion of me. It's not that I am completely apatheic, or that I am acting without regard to those around me, but when it comes down to it... I'm going to live my life the way I want to regardless of what anyone thinks. And I have that right. Who cares if I go into bartending? Who cares if I choose a career that is nearly impossible to support yourself with? Who cares who I choose to date? Who cares if I support Obama? Who cares if I take risks in my life? Who cares???
You might. But that's not going to stop me.
I am a grown adult; one who is capable of making life choices, making my own opinions on social and political issues, choosing my own career path and finding love wherever it may come. So don't presume to know me. Don't tell me what I can and cannot do. You can give me advice, but know that I might not take it. I do have a decent head on my shoulders, and make good life decisions every single day. And like I always say, My playing small doesnt serve the world, or me.
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On another note...
In the past two weeks:
I graduated.
I lost a friend.
I took the first baby steps of my career.
I cried.
I lost a lot of sleep.
I laughed.
I enrolled in more classes.
And tomorrow, I will turn 22.
I'm ready for more. Bring it on.
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I always wonder who you're writing these blog posts to, they always seem to have an audience. :-) I'm pretty sure this one isn't to any family member because I feel like we've been pretty support of all those first items? Sure we poke fun of the Obama thing, etc., but meh, we do the best we can, all things considered. ;-)
ReplyDeleteGood. You shouldn't care. You should embrace opinions of those who love you but ultimately follow your own path. Those who care the most won't abandon simply because you choose something they might not understand.
ReplyDeleteFirst off, bah on my spelling errors in my first comment. Oh well. And second off, though I agree with the idea of staying true to your own beliefs and not compromising for the esteem of others, I at the same time think it's important to consider how others are feeling, ya know? I know I always feel really loved when I know the other person values something I say or do --- and they may not agree with everything, but it's nice to know I'm valued. I bet you're the same way, where you want to be yourself but it also matters to you whether others take the time to value what you're doing.
ReplyDeleteIn genuine friendships, loving relationships, etc., sensitivity/opinions/sharing/etc. are important.
And I don't think I'm saying anything different than what you would say here, I just get nervous when people say "I don't care what anyone thinks about me!" without adding on all this other stuff.
I never said "I don't care what anyone thinks of me." I care quiet a bit what everyone thinks about me. And I will always take other people's opinions and feelings into consideration, but always with a grain of salt.
ReplyDeleteAn example: when hearing feedback from my professors regarding my play, or even what direction they think I should take with my career, I will listen, appreciate what they are telling me, and then make my own decision based on their thoughts... but mostly my own judgement. In the end, I listen, but it is my choice in the end.
I don't want you to feel like your feelings and opinions don't matter to me Matthew. Because they do. And the "audience" that this blog is mostly speaking to will never read this, and frankly I will never be confronted by their 'opinions' on my life. But when I wrote this I was simply in one of those... "Stop judging me behind my back" kind of moods. I can take criticism. I can take people telling me they don't like what I'm doing, just tell me to my face.
My immediate family has always been extremely supportive of me as an artist and as an individual and I will always value that quality in them. I never want that to be misunderstood.
Ah, well you're understood then, no worries. :-)
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